Got up, waited out the dregs of the storm and went to my office. Chatted with coworkers and prospective students for a bit before going to the seminar. Seminar was fine. After the seminar, discussed my identification strategy with classmates. They agree that this makes the most sense for my question but that's not really what I needed. Chatted more. Held office hours and just chatted with people since no one ever comes. Got food and then graded papers (about 1/4 of the way done and only in like an hour. Also a lot less pacing than last time I was grading. Probably less irritated too?)
Institute was really good. We covered the feeding of the 5000 and Jesus Walking on Water, which are well known stories but I actually got a lot out of them. Was quite talkative, since I had lots of thoughts and well I like to make them known, especially if others aren't being talkative. Econ seminar rules! I'll one thought I had (and shared) was about the feeding of the 5000 and I'll record the synopsis below because I'm pretty proud of it.
I've seen before people to try explain, or really deny, the nature of this miracle as being the result of people adding to the baskets as they were passed around, rather than the bread being miraculously duplicated. But like, if anything that's a greater miracle. Any common god can create something out of nothing or command the physical realm. But to change the hearts of the people and make them want to become better, more charitable? That's the point of the atonement and the true power of God. The enact a mighty change of heart, to cause people to want to act in accordance with God. That's much more miraculous than any sort of duplication of bread could ever be.
Makoto Shinkai night continues to go forward; people actually want to come. Ended up keeping it just to work people since more interest was registered than I expected and well the question still looms (no time to answer it). So I gotta clean the house tomorrow and do things like send out a time and address.
Couple of songs I hadn't heard before but stuck out to me today. Bossa Nova Corps by Origami Angel ("I don't see what you see in me, like I'm some sort of deity"). In context, this seems to be about fame and how people now treat the narrator differently now that he's famous. But having been there in a very different context, man did that hurt. There's little scarier than someone telling you that you're like a god to them, utterly adored in a worshipful sense. Teenagers/very young adults suck. The other song was Running Wide Open by Coma Cinema ("I let the years go by I let no one know what's inside My broken heart keeps a beat just fine I don't want to die no more"). Dunno what the context is but those lines hit hard for obvious reasons. I was really bad as a teenager, convinced that I should die young, preferably in a shootout with the FBI. And well, that's not what I want in life anymore. Hasn't been for a long time.
Moodwise, I guess I was normal today. Talkative, fairly cheery even? Not to anxious or agitated, even concerning the (unanswered) question. Definitely not sad, though maybe just a bit more melancholic than yesterday? I dunno.
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