Got up, showered and prepared for general conference. Listened to the first session while working on my first easter post (and taking notes). Really like Stevenson's talk, since a greater focus on Easter is something I've been working on this year. Among other things. Eyring's talk was also really good, so the session was well bookended.
Went to my office to grade but by the time I got there (out the house late and also I saw some hooded mergansers so I just had to try to photo them), I only had a couple minutes before I had to leave to go watch the afternoon session at a friend's house. Session was good but I liked the first session more. Returned to my office and did not grade. Instead I looked up the cost of renting Weathering with You (apparently I got Your Name on sale, should've bought WWY when I had a chance) because I'm thinking about doing a Makoto Shinkai night this week before Suzume comes out next week. Will talk with work friends to see if any are interested and if so, will extend it out the ward as well. Then since I'm having charger problems, went to order a new charger and gloves (since I lost that mitten earlier this week). Haven't bought anything yet though because I need to measure my hand first.
Watched the last session in my office. It was very good, especially the last two speakers. Nattress hit really hard and would've hit even harder a few months ago when I was still trying to commit to (mentally/emotionally) coming back. The other part that got to me was about taking the next step, seeking the next ordinance. This probably won't be the year I get married, but it is time to put myself back on the market. Uceda inspired me to really think about my stewardship and consider both how I can reach out to every person individually and also what I need to do to find the one.
Went home. The sky was really pretty tonight. I think I saw Orion (I'm not good with constellations, as much as I love the night sky). Lots of deer at the deer watching spot. At this rate they're gonna start recognizing me. Finished my first easter post and then did this. I guess I'll go upstairs and either read some old notes or play video games. Definitely not grading tonight.
Is this what normal feels like? It's easy to forget when I'm in a depressive spiral (or in a hypomanic episode if I get those as well. Which like I said, I think I do but I need to talk with a psychiatrist about. Also I think that my last one actually might have started on Monday of spring break, with all those grandiose (?) thoughts. I just might be the sort of person where it manifests as more anxiety/irritation than elation). I'm not sad. I'm not overly anxious (though maybe I have nothing to be anxious about?). I'm not pacing as much, my focus is a bit better without needing to constantly get up. I don't feel so overwhelmed by everything. And of course, there's not really a reason that things should have changed. And yet they have. More to talk with the shrink, I guess.
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