Resting Day 2

 Didn't do much today (which is fine!). Got up, eventually went to work. Didn't do anything at work except give someone some advice (which is why I came to work in the first place) and play Coup. Everyone knows I am a brutal player now :p 

Went home, briefly napped, did some chores, made dinner (rice and onions, which tastes good but really highlights my lack of food). Worked on a potential melody; hope I'm not accidentally plagiarizing something. I think I'll record the vocals tomorrow and then get the music to fit them. Had a call with my advisor. Which went well. 

My advisor thinks I might be able to defend my proposal before fall. Which would be nice because that's more money for me. So we'll see. He also has suggestions on where to get grant money. 

Went shopping, got food for myself and also for the potluck. Burritos were on sale (past the best by date) so I bought more than normal. I am very price sensitive and microwave burritos are a high elasticity object I guess. Did some climbing on the basement wall. I can lift myself up on a 6 finger drag, which apparently is quite impressive. Didn't go aurora hunting but the sky was mixed and it probably didn't get here anyway (based on the NOAA website). 

Looked at old messages, trying to figure out when my depression started. All I know is that I certainly felt depressed in late teens, but the first episode with suicidal thoughts I have on record is when I was 21 and that same year is probably the first 2+ week episode I have recorded (though I likely had such episodes before but didn't recognize them as "real" depression. In February 2014 I mentioned that I'd been feeling depressed all the week before so maybe that's it? There's highly contextual reasons for that though). By any means, much earlier onset than average. 

Right now I feel fine. We'll see if I start slipping again or if I just feel a bit down (compared to even this morning) because I'm losing that high. Lability sucks.